Sunday, December 30, 2012

.kasut tumit tinggi.



kasut tumit tinggi cantik

elegant

classy.

tapi bila pakai lama-lama, tumit jadi sakit

tak selesa

kaki bengkak

melecet.

menyusahkan!

kasut tumit tinggi banyak tepi-tepi kedai.

cantik.

tapi kebanyakan tahap ketidakselesaan adalah tinggi.

sebab?murah.normal lah.

nak cari pakej kasut tumit tinggi berkualiti dan cantik, yang boleh bawa lari-lari kalau lambat ke kelas agak susah.

letaknya bukan di tepi-tepi kedai,

tetapi di dalam gelas kaca.

zaman sekarang...kebanyakan kasut tumit tinggi cantik dipandang, tapi sakit dipakai.

mahu mencari yang betul-betul berkualiti memerlukan kesabaran yang tinggi (yalah.duit melayang.haruslah sabar)

kadang-kadang tersalah pilih kasut,

dipakai beberapa minggu, kemudian hanya menjadi perhiasan di rak kasut

atau paling tidak disedekahkan kepada wanita lain.


walaupun kasut tumit tinggi berguna untuk lempar anjing yang ganas

dan berguna juga untuk memijak kaki lelaki yang gatal,

namun kasut bertapak rata a.k.a. flat shoes/pumps lebih mencuri tumpuan kini

walaupun tidak bergaya, yang penting tidak menyakitkan dan selesa

kalau ada anjing kejar, larian pecut ternyata mudah

jika lelaki ingin menggatal, tak usah layan.mudah bukan?



oh, sebenarnya baru sebentar tadi membeli kasut tapak rendah.kakak hairan.selalunya beli kasut tumit tinggi.aha.semua manusia berubah.saya juga manusia. maka perubahan itu perlu.bosan melihat kasut tumit tinggi.sesetengahnya harus diletak tepi.atau buang saja terus kedalam tong sampah.tutup rapat-rapat dan teruskan perjalanan dengan kasut baru yang selesa.

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

.excuses all the way.

you know the answer

but you hide it

im speechless

the answer to my question is just 'yes' or 'no'

but you choose telling me excuses instead.

you and you are all the same

you should just go

go!!!

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

.new project is on the way.



May Allah ease.Amin. =)

.coz i'm the ice-cream lover.

That's why I put all the effort searching for the recipe, buying all the ingredients needed and sweating in the kitchen just to produce a good homemade icecream. Thanks to this blog for the recipe. =)

So...lets see what are the ingredients, shall we?


 
Evaporated milk (use one whole can.200 ml i think.go check now.lol)
Condensed milk (5 tbs is enough for me.Suku tin is recommended.)
Egg (1)
Vanilla essence (1 cap) *im running  out of vanilla.so I use pandan instead.
Ovalett (1 tbs)
Milo (or choose your own favourite flavour)
 
 
How to do it?
easypeasy!
Mix all the ingredients except milo use handmixer. 'Handmixed' them for 15-20 minutes.
Done?
Add milo.Use any spoon, and stir it until you feel satisfied.
Refrigerated your half-done icecream. Wait until it becomes a real ice-cream
then tadaaaa.enjoy your ice-cream with your love ones.or one.lol.
 
my humble miloreo icecream.
 
 
 

 


Saturday, December 15, 2012

beautiful.like a monkey.

'cantik bah si ana ni.<<>>cantik macam monyet' -mak sy-

kalau 15 tahun dulu mungkin tgh merajuk hampas pintu bilik kuatkuat sambil menangis macam nora danish dalam cerekarama tv3.

sekarang dah matang.ketukketuk meja sambil ketawa kuatkuat macam tgk barney dalam howimetyourmother.


Wednesday, December 12, 2012

.monster.

close your eyes
this is just a dream
nothing is real

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

.Selfishness.

Having a good time with my childhood friend just now. We talked about everything and laughed over it until she told me about her experience working in this particular company in tawau.

When they want to pray, the boss said,
'Saya upah kamu untuk bekerja bukan untuk sembahyang'

There is a friend who curi-curi perform the prayer.  So, she also decided to do the same. But when she just about to pray her friend said
'Eh, janganlah ko sembahyang.Nanti boss nampak aku nda kena bagi suda sembahyang nanti.'


Seriously?? =.='

Thursday, December 6, 2012

mengapa jadi begini?

Solat berjemaah memang best. Dahlah dapat pahala lebih, kau boleh senyap dan dengar ja imam baca. Tapi yang tak best kalau kau berjemaah tiba-tiba ada lompang sebelah kau.  Bukan tak ada orang.Ada sebenarnya. Tapi orang sebelah tidak mahu berganjak dari sejadah warnawarni kegemarannya. Sejak bila sejadah jadi ukuran untuk mark territory ketika berjemaah? Main pagar-pagar pula, ingat ini rumah?

Pergi shopping di satu tempat yang first time pergi tahun ni.  Excited macam biasa. Tapi keseronokan tu hilang tiba-tiba.  Apa kau rasa kalau tiba-tiba kau semangat membeli orang tu cakap pilihan kau salah siap paksa kau beli 3 jenis baju yang memang tak pernah ada dalam list shopping kau sejak zaman tadika lagi (eh over pula).  Bila kau mau blah bole pula dia tanya 'kenapa pegi?kenapa tak mau beli yang ini?' siap dia jeling lagi. Eh, HAHA betul lah.

Kau drive pun bole tertidur apalagi kalau orang drivekan. Jadi sampai bila kau mau pandai drive kalau begitu.Patutlah kau nda dibagi pinjam kereta sampai sekarang. Takut nanti tawau jadi tumpuan tv3; 'seorang wanita memandu sambil tutup mata' awesome!  

pegal.

kenapa tajuk macam jiwang.


Friday, November 30, 2012

.Jumble up.

It was postponed.
I'm glad.

The short unintentional meeting last time was quite effective.  Praying September come fast coz yours truly can't wait to see the result (if there's any).

Nobody knows this and that.
I'm glad.

But people keep on guessing.
I'm annoyed.sometimes.

I know what I want.
I'm glad.

But no action taken.
Clever.

If plan A is not working,
plan B is not an option.
I will stick to plan A, upgrade here and there, and make it plan A+.
Hope it works.


i call this the thinking-face

Sunday, November 25, 2012

.Doa Qunut.

Ya Allah! Tunjukilah daku sebagaimana orang-orang yang telah Dikau berikan hidayah. Sejahterakanlah daku sebagaimana orang yang telah Dikau sejahterakan. Muliakanlah daku sebagaimana orang-orang yang telah Dikau muliakan. Berkatilah segala yang telah Dikau kurniakan kepadaku. Jauhkanlah daku daripada segala kejahatan yang telah Dikau tetapkan. Sesungguhnya Dikau Yang Maha Menentukan dan tiada seorang jua pun yang dapat merubah ketetapan-Mu. Sesungguhnya tidak menjadi hina orang yang Dikau muliakan dan tidak mulia orang yang Dikau musuhi. Demi berkat-Mu, wahai Tuhan kami dan Maha Tinggi Dikau! Hanya bagi-Mu segala pujian atas apa-apa yang Dikau tetapkan. Daku memohon ampun kepada-Mu dan daku bertaubat kepada-Mu. Semoga Allah merahmati Muhammad, Nabi yang Ummi dan atas keluarga dan sahabat Baginda kesejahteraan.


Semoga apa yg dibaca setiap subuh ini mendapat keberkatan.I.Allah.


Saturday, November 24, 2012

.shall I compare thee.

It is still fresh in my mind. The routine I had, although quite boring for some, is the most exciting one.  When I get home, the atmosphere is less stressful,which doesn't surprise me because 'home is where the heart is', remember? 

Every night before sleep, I sit in bed with a cup of hot choc, staring at all the clothes and scarfs and skirts and trousers in the wardrobe.  'What should I wear tomorrow?' is the most popular question in my head, every night. Take this, match with that, mix with this and that and tadaaaa, the outfit will be hanging behind the door, ready to be worn the next day.  It will take almost an hour or two, mind you.

At about seven thirty, I put on sweater and head out.  It's cold outside. The soft grey of the dawn is tinged with purple-pink sunrise.  I stand still, gazing at the wonderful colours in the sky for a few moments, and I could feel my spirits lifting and I tell myself 'It's gonna be a better day!'.  Oh, that's so ideal. I wish I did that for real.  Forget this paragraph. I'm bluffing.

Class usually starts at nine. At seven thirty, I make myself a coffee and say 'Hmm..the taste is as awesome as Starbucks' just to hypnotise myself so that I will enjoy every single sip.  And surprisingly, it works.  No kidding.  Then I sit down, facing the pond behind my house, and sip my coffee.  I love to see the ducklings. The big trees. The squirrels. And if I'm lucky, I could see the mousedeer and deers. I prefer to sit there all day,but as the clock strikes eight thirty, I know I have a class to attend. 

By the time I arrive, it is already nine or nearly nine-O-five (9.05).  As I catch my breath, my friend usually says 'you come early today'.  I know he is being sarcastic.  Michael-thelecturer taught him well.  And, as a respond to that, I usually give him the brightest smile. And I know he's melting. Ok. Kidding.  That doesn't happen at all.

The first thing I would do in the class is scanning all the classmates.  Oh, there is she. She's wearing yet another amazing dress.  Then I will tell the person next to me, how perfect her outfit is.  Sadly, man cannot judge sometimes. He just shrugs.

I miss this place.  Where I am far away from everything. I know, someone somewhere wishes I would stay there forever. I wish too.  But not forever. At least until everything is over.


I know I shall not compare. Let's keep moving forward.

Sunday, November 18, 2012

.Mojo the 'C'.

So, yesterday was AIM 19 and I didn't even know it.  Or care to know about it.  Call me out-dated for watching the 'siaranulangan'. Eh wait! Is this the sign of me getting older?? Coz I don't really updated myself with all the entertainment stuffs lately. Oh no!

Ok.

Whatever.

I presume I'm matured enough to get myself busy with stuffs like this. HAHA.

So,I watched AIM this afternoon. I just knew about a band called 'Mojo'. I was like, what??Mojo??Seriously?? I know they must have an appropriate definition for it. But, you see, my first encounter with 'mojo' is something like this;

Yes. Condoms.  I got this in my welcome pack last year when I was in Marjon Uni.  And that will answer how i know about this thing.

So did I use it? Yes. But not really me. Two of my male-classmates used it. Ok before your mind wander negatively,let me explain.  They took my mojo one day and filled it with water. They throw it from the second floor and they clapped  and laughed excitedly watching it burst (eh it sounds immature.lol). They even treated it like a balloon. And we 'euwwww' them. Haha

The main point is not about AIM really. It's about the mojo.LOL.

p/s: I fink the 'cukup cukup sudah' song is nonsense. Especially when the wrong person sings it. #justsaying. (that awkward moment when you use hashtag in blogspot)

Friday, November 16, 2012

slip of the tongue?NO!

Ok.Ok.Inhale.Exhale.

I'm worried sick! What on earth am I doing??? Somebody should slap me on the face. Or just kick me as hard as you can.

Where IS my brain? Going down the drain??

Seriously I should think twice before saying anything. Ya ampun. I'm just making things worst donchu think? (ok.apologise. You dont know the context, d'you?)

.kura-kura.



'Ko makan mau dekat satujam sudah. Lama juga. Berapa course ko ambil ni?' the family said.

Ya ampun.seriously.I have to change this habit. It took me almost one hour to finish one plate of rice. What is happening to me? I seriously have to eat as fast as I could. This one-month-holiday should be spent on a course called 'How to Eat Like A Man'. Why man?coz man can eat within 10 minutes. Or less. (eh gender stereotype ok.)



love,
a girl who takes ages to finish her food


p/s: cuba cakap kura-kura banyak kali. you will find the word is weird. betul! cubalah!

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

.drive me crazy. (lesen perhiasan)

'I wanna come.'

'Ok.'

'But I don't know the way.Can you drive?'

'Who?Me?'

'Yes.You.'

'No way.I can't.Thousand times cannot.'

'Seriously? I thought you already have licence'

'Yes.'

'So? Drive then. Next year practicum rite? You should use this one month to practise.'


Why everybody wants me to drive?Why?Why? I hate driving. I have no idea why I took the driving license at the first place. =.=' 




Saturday, November 10, 2012

.caring is sharing.

You say:
I can't take this anymore. I wanna change. But the changes mean losing the things I love.

But Allah says: 
"Dan orang-orang yang berusaha dengan bersungguh-sungguh kerana memenuhi kehendak agama Kami, sesungguhnya Kami akan memimpin mereka ke jalan-jalan Kami; dan sesungguhnya (pertolongan dan bantuan) Allah adalah berserta orang-orang yang berusaha membaiki amalannya." [al-Ankabut, ayat 69]


I come across this post in fb:
"Hati manusia yang tidak solat umpama bateri yang kosong. Maka manusia yang tidak solat, umpama telefon yang sudah kehabisan bateri. Apabila hati “mati”, tidak berguna wajah yang tampan dan badan yang sasa pada seseorang manusia, seperti tidak ada gunanya telefon bimbit yang canggih dan cantik tanpa bateri!"

and perhaps I can relate that post with this conversation that I heard yesterday:

'Alimnya dia. Dia tak tinggal solat 5 waktu sehari'
'Err...bukan kita memang tak boleh tinggal solat ka?'


Wallahualam.

dear sister,

was trembling and shaking replying ur message
why now?
why at this very moment?
i miss u so much that i can't even say it.
hey, hey, stop talking about that topic
coz i don't wanna hear a thing
im not interested to know anything which is not related and not even relevant to me.
i just want to know, how are you doing?
are you alright?
how bout makcik?
is she good?
but if you want to talk about the topic...
stop
just stop
coz i've been running for so long
i just need to stop
i beg you
please.
have mercy on me.




12 midnight.with the lights off.


yours truly,
a girl who owns a new dress.
(oh that new dress is gorgeous. i bought it for less than 50ringgit.what an investment, rite?rite?it looks good on jeans or even skirt. and you can pair it with heels or flat.but i just need to find the scarf.coz i dont have a fancy one.ok i just ruin the melancholic tone in this post. i'm just too excited you see.apology.)

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

belon warna warni.cantik.kan?

'how u celebrate the end of the semester?'

'basuh baju!'

'seriously??'

ok.actually thats the best thing that i can think of. yes.yes. i'm boring.


btw..the james bond is awesome! go watch it now! Will try to find nemo tomorrow. cartoon! enticing! donchu think? =)

p/s: receiving three cards so far. another card is on the way. relax. i'm enjoying my life so far (i.Allah amin). =)

free!body and soul free! (i've imagined somethin like this happens for real=p)

Monday, November 5, 2012

.Allah's blessings.

the combination of this ^
and this _
and this ^
will create this ^_^

: this is just a colon
and this = is just an equal sign
when we add this )
it will become like this :)
and this =)

i don't like to type smiley faces like this :-)
or this :))
coz the former looks weird to me.like a monkey.
and the latter looks as if you have double chin. i know it means you are so happy that you wanna smile twice. but why don't you just put it this way :) :)?? oh time consuming ba kan.lol.

whatever it is, i like the changes that happen
i hope more =) is coming.
and double ^_^ hopefully is on the way.

anyways, i just stick to my plan
i just let it empty for this very moment.coz its better that way.

Saturday, October 27, 2012

.barney calls it 'doppelganger'.

I meet your identical twin.
I should tell you this.
It's a lol, really.
Everything is perfectly the same except for some traits.
Try to reach you on fb.
But haish, i forgot you are not in my friend list (for some immature reason.which makes me lol-ing now)
The only way i can tell you is here, in my blog.
Hopefully you still read mine.


and oh yeah
That person is annoyingly nice.
just like you.
LOL


When i said annoying, i completely mean it.
but in a nice way (seriously??).
ok.
annoying and nice shouldnt go side by side.
they sound oxymoronly weird.




the identical-twin founder,
rama_ana

Sunday, October 21, 2012

.Bee is my middle name.

Was quite busy recently. Suprisingly, I appreciated every second of my busy-ness. Thanks to problems.Lol.

I experienced a totally different atmosphere;

from
judging people

to
 
being judged by people

and honestly, i'd rather being judged than judging.
Coz it's quite hard for me, as an amateur, to judge those debaters
It's quite annoying when some people dissatisfied with your judgement and start to throw a list of argument in front of you.

Anyways, I'm enjoying myself in perak.
Despite the 24/7 critical thinking time, I still had time to go shopping! weehuuu
but I only managed to buy a few things for me, mum, and friends.
couldn't buy much.
masa tidak mengizinkan dan amat mencemburui saya.lol.


p/s Thanks to all the awesome people who coloured my day. May Allah bless you all the way. ^_^

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

jatuh kifarah dosa.kan?

Di tangga rumah kawan
saya jatuh
sakit.
kaki kiri luka.
berdarah.
syukur saja tidak bernanah.
kaki kanan lebam-lebam
macam digigit makhluk halus. *ketawa
Masa jatuh, memang tak jelita langsung.
muka tahan sakit macam tahan berak 10 tahun.
menangis memang mau
tapi ada david tengok.
malu. *uhuk
selang beberapa hari
jatuh lagi.
kali ni orang tolak.
lepas tolak dia blah.
saya tak salahkan dia.
memang salah saya pun
masa bejalan mata disuruh tengok depan
sebab saya 'pandai', saya tengok belakang.
lepas jatuh terus nangis
sebab tak ada orang tengok pun. *ketawa
maka luka jatuh tangga rumah kawan makin teruk.
beberapa hari kemudian, di minggu yang sama,
jatuh lagi.
sudah nasib.
mungkin sepanjang tahun lalu tak pernah jatuh
jadi dalam minggu yang sama Allah uji dengan 'jatuh' *wallahualam
kali ni orang tolak lagi
agak kuat
kasar.
tenaga dia banyak.
sampai saya jatuh tergolek
hampir saja di hantar ke ICU *haha.over
sakit
sebab luka yang dulu belum sembuh lagi
syukur sebab ditakdirkan ada kawan-kawan menyambut dari bawah
terima kasih ya semua. *senyum

sekarang sakitnya masih terasa
disuruh ke hospital
malas
doktor hanya bagi ubat sapu dan tahan sakit
kan?
kalau ada doktor yang bagi ubat hilang parut terus,
tolong bagitahu
ok?


Friday, October 5, 2012

I don't care! It's unfair!

I'm almost there
almost!
I thank God many times that I listened to hotfm this morning.
But it's just too far
they are not fair!
they don't do it in sabah n sarawak.
why don't they give us a chance?
semenanjung tu jauh u know. i'm having class some more.
not fair
not fair
i'm waiting for this thing like ages
there goes my chance.

mum said, tiapa, next time ada lagi.
next time tu bila?'you're getting older' my friend said. Tau.that's why i want it now.(tiada kesabaran.lol)

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

.my only wish.

All your armies
All your fighters
All your tanks
and all your soldiers
against the boy
holding a stone
standing there all alone
in his eyes i see the sun
in his smile i see the moon
and i wonder
i only wonder
who is weak
and who is strong
who is right
and who is wrong
and i wish
i only wish
that THE TRUTH HAS A TONGUE.






.Musarrat Karim.

Monday, September 24, 2012

.drive me crazy. (:P)

It was raining heavily. I was worried sick. The road must be slippery.  It must be hard to see the line. The what-ifs thought haunted me until I had to tell myself to stop what-if'ing'.  'Bersangka baiklah dengan ujian Allah' my friend once said. So, yes, I was positive all the way to akademi memandu.

Until I met this friend (whom I forgot to ask her name) who was very nervous.  She started to mumble words which transferred the negativity to my brain.  And I was nervous all over again.

The bukit part was excellent. The jpj-man was very serious so I didn't dare to look at him. I proceed to the parking-area and 3 penjuru.  The nervousness gone coz suddenly i enjoyed doing those parking thingy. lol. When I took the slip, the jpj-man told me that he seems to know me.  I was high up in the sky thinking who my cleberity-look-alike is (lol).  When in fact, he knows me coz I'm his friend's sister. Thanks to my father's name. (baru mo feeling2 artis.haha)

Few minutes later,before proceeding to the main road, I saw a lady crying in the jpj-test car. 'She failed' said a woman. I was nervous again. Coz my turn was right after hers. I was what-if'ing' all over again.

Finally, I was in the car, with a bald-tattoed-jpj man. He didn't smile. Even I gave him mine. Ish.sombong. Silence. I could hear my own heart-beat.  Despite the 'stereng lari', 'makan jalan' and driving too fast, he finally gave me a 'pass' coz he said, I'm a good girl. Eh, no. He said, I'm a good driver. Weee~

So now, officially, I got my 'P'. but i dont have a car. Who's willing to sponsor me? (mcm minta belanja karipap seja)


p/s thanks for all the prayer.thanks for texting. =)




Saturday, September 22, 2012

.drive me crazy (from L to P).

Monday is the test.

Panic!

That's all I can think of.

And that's why I decided to add another two-hour lesson today.

He, the tutor, brought me to pekan to take the 'L' car and I should drive from there he said.

Arrived at the pekan, and he asked me to drive the car out of the parking lot.  I would like to say no, but hey, my test is on Monday.  'No' is no more acceptable.

The air-cond is on, but I was sweating a real sweat.  I was struggling left and right to take the car out, while he's busy talking about this acai who has lotsa money and cars but still a bachelor. =.='

After few minutes, we finally arrived safely in the middle of the pekan.  Cars were here and there.  Jammed! Have I told you that I hate gear 1??  Coz I'm not an expert in balancing the accelerator and the clutch. And that will explain why I don't like red light and jam.

Driving at the roundabout is another story.  I know and surely know that we cannot stop at the roundabout.  But I did stop.  My engine died off twice! I screwed the traffic. ='( All the cars were waiting for me to start the engine and get out of the way. Few disrespectful cars honking. And I feel like the most pathetic woman on earth ='( If I were rosmah, I would sue those ppl who honk at women like me.

My test is on Monday.  Pray that I'm still alive, holding the 'P'.




Sunday, September 16, 2012

.give it back!

like a puzzle
i always try to find every single piece
and paste it on the right place
i just want to see what image it would create
but until now i fail
coz somebody hide the missing pieces
thank you...
















for being cruel.

Saturday, September 8, 2012

no longer a candle?

Just recently I read a lot about teachers.  Teachers suddenly become a 'hot-stuff' but don't yeayy yet coz all the things I read are about the negative issues of teachers. Teachers are useless. Teachers makan gaji buta.  English teachers teach broken English (oucch). Teachers involve a lot in direct selling until they ignore their students.  Teachers are this.  Teachers are that..bla blabla I just lol.

Why do you think those people concern so much about teachers?Why don't they criticise the doctor, engineer, architect or those other professions? The professional reason is because teachers are the beginning of all the professions in the world so if teachers make mistakes, the possibility for the learners to make mistakes are high.  People afraid if teachers no longer can produce excellent doctors so thats why they have to give harsh comments on the teachers.
And the real reason that I can think of is because teachers are just too awesome that they can't resist the temptation to degrade them. =)

For those who are burning inside after reading about all the criticization and accusation on teachers, just chill.  If you know you are not the kind of teachers they are talking/babbling about, you just have to take a sip of hot coffee while reading the nonsense and relax.  There are several reasons why they write those kind of things:
1. They have the lousiest teachers during their schooldays
2. They wanted to be a teacher but they failed during BPG's interview.
3. They wanted to involve in direct selling but fail to do so.
4. They wanted to marry a teacher but all the teachers rejected them.

Nothing could be done to shut their mouths.  All we can do is, be an excellent teacher.Try to give our best until they can't find ways to talk negative things about us. If you want to get involved in direct selling things, make sure neither of the students' parents are your client. And...one more thing, since those people complaint that teachers always take maternity leave, then, I guess those people don't want teachers to make babies every year. Donchu think?

Friday, September 7, 2012

.you, with the longest leg.

dear tall-but-not-so-handsome michael,
you said you might be coming next year
so i put my masculine face and ask 'what for?'
you said you are being invited to come to m'sia and observe us
though it is under your 'work-purposes', deep down i know you want and really eager to meet us
put it in a romantic-word, you actually miss us.
when i was just about to be happy, you said you can't promise to come
coz it could be another lecturer. not him.
no
no
i want you to come
no matter what it takes, you should come. you must come!
you said, finger cross, you will come to visit us.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

.now we shall look at it and smile.

We never had a proper family portrait before
back then, we tried so many times to have one
but there's always an empty space in the photo,
there's always somebody missing
it's either the sisters or the head of the family
until the latter passed away,we didn't really care to have a decent family portrait
coz why bother to have one when you know the family's VIP (a.k.a father) won't be there in the photo

until recently,
my sister suggested that we should take a picture together
only six of us and the mom
bros-in-laws are not allowed to interframe
not even the kids (ehe.kejam)
and so we did.

the first take is a failure:
distraction from the kids upstairs

next,
the decent one

and that was the only day we cared to take pictures
other days, we left the cameras virginly inside the handbag,
perhaps because we don't want the clicking cameras contribute to our fake smiles
or because we don't have a highquality camera let alone dslr
or simply because the six of us are not photogenic.lol

so now, in the family check list, 'family portrait' has been ticked. =)

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Saturday, August 11, 2012

.drive me crazy.

In a minute I thought, how on earth did I get in here??What am I doing inside this very car with a stranger?? And why did I sit in the driver's seat?? I was nervous. I have no idea how to control the steering let alone the brake the clutch and the gear. The moment he said start the engine, I was sweating like nobody business.  Why can't he show me first how to drive?? What if I hit the pole...or worst..a human.

After a few minutes, I gained the confidence. And when he saw me smiling, he started to talk about this and that.  About his wife, his son and everything.  Now I realise how hard it is to drive when your thought is somewhere else.  I suddenly couldn't make sense of which is left and right. That's why I almost hit the bush. He said 'brake!'. Because I was nervous, I didn't know what I did.  But the last thing I knew, the engine had died off.

Coz he is my instructor, he didn't give up though he knows his life is in danger.  The next thing I did was parking.  Worst thing happened when I tried to reverse.  I didn't even look at the side mirror.  I was enjoying myself 'pushing and pulling' the steering (hey its fun.lol). He once again said 'brake!' coz I almost hit the poles. But, as usual, I was nervous. I screamed. I acidentally released the steering and tried to make sense which one is brake.  And end up, I press the accelerator instead. And, yes, I hit the poles excellently.

The instructor must be annoyed having such a lembab student like me. I almost give up. I hate those three things; the clutch, the brake, the accelerator.  I wish cars only have steering and nothing else.      

Monday, August 6, 2012

Sunday, August 5, 2012

how about our future?

Ouh such a happy day
Come to class and learn nothing. Noice!
The hidden curriculum?Screw the responsibility, as long as we have the 'title' then it's more than enough.
And oh, not to forget, ask the guinea pigs to do this and that. Easy peasy!
If this happens everyday, then don't blame me for being just like you and you. Professional??What's that? Food??
Oh btw, looking at the bright side, they actually want to train us for our school days later. Yalah, in schools, even the teachers don't have any class to teach, they can't go back (according to a bestfriend).



"hari-hari macam ni boleh jadi bodoh" -a friend-

Thursday, August 2, 2012

.aiming high.

I promise myself, no more next time (yes,this is like the hundredth same-old-promise that I make to myself). You see, I'm good in imagining things (no, i'm not boasting. wait until you finish the next line). But the badside of imagining things quite quickly and efficiently is that you tend to jump into conclusion in a split second. And when the wonderful thing that you've imagine does not work the way you want it to be, the dissapoinment is greater than ever.  I always condemn those who put high expectation on others, but now, I do the same thing anyway (in your face, yours truly!).  Everyday, I imagine changes will happen.  Something will progress gracefully.  But at the end of the day, what left is me..and my same old hope that refuses to be renewed. Now, tell me, what's good about being imaginative?

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

.hopeless grief.

Should I just give up?
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long pause.but no answer.sigh.

Monday, July 30, 2012

.those two weeks.

If dad is still alive, he won't approve what I did today.  I've complained much.  This is not right, that's not right,why should we do that?Aren't we suppose to study?Presentation again?Who's the lecturer now? Who's gonna do the teaching, us again?  I don't know what happen to me. It seems like the negativivity revolves around me everyday especially during weekdays. Entering the class, the only thing I'm looking forward to is meeting my friends (and eyeing the latest fashion of bajukurung n hijab from the juniors). Study??I have no idea what we learn in class.  At least Friday class is awesome. Thanks JK for your real teaching n learning session. The rest??istighfar banyakbanyak.  From now on,  I think, I should stop complaining.  Complaining is bad for health; mentally and physically.  So I think we should just go with the flow, and see how it goes.  

p/s:We know we spent 3 years in the uk.  But it doesn't mean we forgot our root and culture. Please, we are not that bad. 



sedihla macam ni.

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

.Lets make dua'.

"Ya Allah, jadikan mata kami mata yang melihat kebaikan orang lain, jadikan hati kami hati yang memaafkan kesalahan orang lain, jadikan minda kami minda yang melupakan keburukan orang lain terhadap kami dan jadikan iman kami tetap di jalan yang Kau redhai."



*copypaste from a senior. =)

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

.stop comparing they said.

Hi, I am a student.
As a student, I need to listen to the teachers and pay attention all the time. Thats the taboo in teaching and learning, no? But when things are wrong, and the teacher says something which you know is morally wrong, don't you think we should stop listen? And if you are brave enough to argue, tell the teacher that he/she is going overboard. But as Malaysian students, I (or we) have been trained to listen and not to be vocal. 'Budi bahasa budaya kita', remember?  

I'm tired of listening to those kind of stuffs actually. Stop the fairy tales and lets get back to business. But whatever it is, I still respect you coz you are the teacher, and above all, you are the MKO (more knowledgeable others).


not-related: my fb homepage full of wedding photos and newborn babies. congrats!cant wait to upload mine too.haha.kidding.

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

.say hello to reality.

Cannot do this and that
Have to do this and that
Hey cannot wear this.Should wear that
What are you doing there?You should be here
You can't put it here. Why don't you put it there?


Too many donts. Welcome to 'homesweethome'

p/s: sabar itu separuh daripada iman.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Ally was here..

The crystal mosque is awesome! Sabby's aunt said, the mosque is getting famous because of ally.lol.of course it's a joke. Even without ally, the mosque is still at its best.haha.



mimbar

my favourite.It looks classy, no?

It was under construction somewhere in the mosque.
So we decided to pray in masjid putih. Subhanallah, cantikcantik lah masjid terengganu ni.



p/s: obviously i just go through all the pictures after a month I went back from pantai timur.lol

Monday, July 9, 2012

"I just want to change...you"

"Fate be changed.Look inside.Mend the bond.Torn by pride"

'Our fate lives within us, you just have to be BRAVE enough to see it' 

-BRAVE- 

Yes I memorise some of the lines. Excited much?lol.  Blame me for watching the movie twice. And I don't mind watching it thrice (belanja la tapi).


source



Friday, July 6, 2012

Ouh, let it be

Yes I finally went out today, in a decent way (lol).  It's friday. I was searching for my jubah but it's nowhere to be found. That's why I opted for that flowy skirt.  I forgot to check the whether forecast.  I didn't know that it was quite windy this morning. That will give you an idea how troublesome it is to wear something flowy when the whether is not being friendly, right? And that will explain how my skirt got caught in a door.  And the macik from the bank trying to safe me by screaming like there's no tomorrow (exaggerating.lol). Thank God my skirt didn't completely rip off but still, there's a small hole at the very bottom.  Oh,actually I should thank the macik for screaming. If not, I would end up buying a new maxi skirt pronto.

There's another thing. While heading for lunch at a particular restaurant, I didn't realise that there was blood all over my fingers until I noticed there were couple of red dots on my skirt. "Where's this blood coming from?" (And yeah, that was the stupidest question I've ever asked) From my fingers obviously.  Until now, how my forefinger got cut is still a mystery (no lol).

In the restaurant, the waitress was passing the menu when I asked for handy plus. She was blur. Oh, silly me. Of course, handy plus is a brand. So I said plaster; aha more general.  She's still blur.  So I showed my blood-y fingers (literally).  She was panic for a moment and quikly searched for the plaster.  She must be thinking that I ordered handy plus for lunch.lol.

My pathetic day didn't stop there.  We were late 25 minutes for movie.  Oh btw, the main reason for this outing is to watch  Mr. Spidey or practically Spiderman (thanks to hafiz for the nickname.lol).Just imagine...we, the women...running with skirt and jubah...(siap ada background music 'wanita hiasan dunia seindah hiasan adalah wanita soleha').  Ouchhh!

After movie, we went to this ice blended stall. I was busy texting my sister. I seriously didn't realise the drink snake out from its cup. And yes, my scarf was wet and my skirt...tch tch tch. and I was messy. And for now, I don't want to see that stall again.

Then, I went home. and I forgot to buy handy plus. Great!   

.thats the skirt that i'm talking about.

moral of the story: perbetulkan niat sebelum keluar rumah. 'sahaja aku keluar rumah utk tgk peter parker' is quite emmm.....how should I say...emm..not appropriate?




-------You asked 'hows ur day'...this had explained how my day really was.

p/s: fb msg 23rd march 2012 (8th).

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

.the moment you wish you were invisible.

"Fashion apa auntie pakai ni?"
"Ini latest fashion di london."
"Oo..macam baju tidur kan."
=.="

I swear to God, I thought I wouldn't get out from the car hence the pjs,the cardie and the out-of-place scarf. Seriously, if I knew I had to step my foot into the mall, I wouldn't do that fashion crime.  I WOULD NOT,in a million times. 


I still cant forget the way that waiter look at me senyumsenyummintatampar. Yesyes I know I look funny with that colour-blocking pjs. But kepsi don't have dress code rite? Haish malu tauk.     

Saturday, June 30, 2012

S.O.S.

I can't bake. Thus i feel hopeless
I think my smile is fake. Thus i feel hopeless
I know what to do but I just can't do it straight away. Thus, hopeless
I'm watching tv but I have no idea what on earth they are talking about. Hopeless
Buying something which is hopeless. Seriously hopeless.
Having endless list of things I should buy, but end up buying things which are not even in the list. Again hopeless.
Planning this and this and that--but nothing seems to work perfectly as it should. Why? hopeless.


I'm thinking too much about that one thing I guess until everything seems hopeless.
I think I should hope-less and stop being hopeless, no? 


Too many negative feelings are no good. You with the positive aura should at least send me some of yours. please. come fast.pos laju if can.

selipar putus. i really hope i can mend it straight away. how?how? hopelessnya.

 

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

.one after another.

she's leaving.
im all by myself.









'la tahzan.innallaha ma'ana', remember?

Monday, June 25, 2012

make haste!

coz she found this inside her mind

source

so please come and help her fast.

Sunday, June 24, 2012

.this is a love story. ("how we met")

1
It was my first day as a trainee teacher in the school. I was nervous. Real nervous. Teaching is not my cup of tea --as I would like to be a steward actually.  I had to teach form 5 students. Phew! Such a tough job really. I was 21 and they were 17 years old.  I told myself million times not to have a crush (let alone fall in love) with the students. and the teachers as well. No. Not from this school at least, I told myself.

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2
I was having a tough time.  I really want to be a teacher after my parents rejected my 'application' as a stewardess.  To be a teacher, I had applied three times. But failed to get a positive answer from them.  Frustrated, I am. One day, I received an offer from my father's friend who wanted me to substitute a maths teacher who just got a baby. No doubt, I was absolutely willing to help!  I couldn't wait to say hello to the school. *smile

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1
I had a long hair--something which is prohibited for male teachers nowadays. I often flipped my hair and that made the girls go 'wow' (according to them.*laugh).  I was a very very shy person. I didn't know how to speak to the Venusians (well, I mean girls). Then, one day, while preparing exam papers in the typing room, a lady came in. It was the first time I saw her. And my heart thumped like thunder. She was absolutely stunning. She talked a lot. And I love to listen to all the things she said. By the way, I flipped my hair more often, you know...just to attract her attention. *laugh

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2
I enjoyed my temporary career as a teacher in the school.  I love everything; the students, the headmaster, the school, my subject and everything! You know what, I saw a guy with a long hair playing volleyball the other day. And actually, he is included in the 'everything'. *smile.  The way he flipped his hair wow-ed me. We met again in the typing room.  He helped me to type and print all my exam papers.  He didn't talk much. But that's alright as long as he listen coz I love to talk. *smile


*adapted from a friend's parents. they really know how to continue each other's sentence. and i'm amazed by that. May Allah bless their family herein and hereafter.

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

put the blame on...who?

one fine afternoon.somewhere in Msia.

"mak, babi tu apa?"
"babi tu hantu. dia makan orang yang xmau mandi.suda.cepat pegi mandi"


sometimes, some people scold their children if they tell lies. I think they should scold themselves first.

Monday, June 18, 2012

.before flying with wings.

Bumped into a pole and hit a trolley
Clumsily put the trolley in place and run to kl central with my big luggage and a hand luggage and a bag pack packed with things God-knows-what
Bought klia transit and lost the ticket few minutes after that
Made a muka kesian to the guy in the counter to replace my ticket for free
'No miss.We can't help you. Why don't you search for it again.' Stress! I feel like giving him a high-five.in the face.eh, tapi muka dia kiut
After half an hour searching, I found the ticket.Crumpled with another trash inside my bag. How come lah.
The guy in the counter showed his concern. I proudly showed my newly found ticket. He smiled. tarik balik high 5 in the face.
Then I accidentally said something which people, who are about to fly, shouldn't say; "bestnya kan if the ppl called our name. attention to miss ramadana, you have to check in now at gate 7 bla bla.famous kita di klia weh"
I said it coz I overly confident that we would coming in time. Ditakdirkan, we went to the wrong gate.
and yes, my dream came true. The people in charge called our name after we ran like nobody business from gate b7 to a9. Imagine, running with the heavy bag pack and the double heavy hand luggage. No wonder the flight attendant said 'balik dari sekolah ye dik?kenape tak pakai seragam sekolah?" =.="

Despite the many things happened, I was having a good time running here and there, laughing all the way and exchanging so many things and stories with lia. We had been sleeping together for more than 3 days, and you know what it means. LOL.

Friday, June 15, 2012

.kuale lumpo.

From kb to kl
so much different
the former is sooo green
the latter is sooo blue (ehe)
it doesnt matter though, bumi Tuhan juga dua2.

KL is always at its best.ehem.in terms of shopping
sogo got 70% off for handbags, purse bedsheet and stuff
the tudungs (with the same pattern and same style) in jalan tar are much cheaper than in kelantan and terengganu
but no worries i didn't buy much.
3 months without allowance in gaya stop me from shopping
see...i, at times, can think ahead too.aha.iyalaa tu.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

.the first days in malaysia.

Say hi to malaysia 4 days ago
for certain reasons, i'm not yet in sabah

now in nik aziz hometown (eh is it?ehe), i feel at ease.
it's peaceful here (despite the terrible sunburn) 
thanks to sabby and lia and wani
they make me feel at home.

i went shopping like i usually did in any other places
i walked faster.and leave the others behind.
then there's this incident when i asked the macik this and that and tried to bargain
she failed to understand me and me too, failed to understand her.
no matter how hard i tried to speak their language, i failed to do so
kecek kelate meme fail. asyik dok pehe ja.
then i realise, shopping in here needs more than a good skill. it needs language and understanding.
thanks to sabby and cikbi.thanks for explaining what 'gori' is, what 'riya' and 'so' is. thanks for helping me to bargain. *clap 



Friday, June 8, 2012

.room 31E.

last day in plymouth
all i could see is emptiness
all i could hear is the echo of my own voice
there's nothing in here
completely nothing
and i couldn't even think of anything
ask me what the answer for 1x1 is, and i bet my answer would be 2.

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

.before leaving for good. (4)

London was sunny. And cloudy too.  British weather. What do you expect?ehe. I didn't snap lots of picture. Coz I was too excited admiring all the things in london. Macam jakun, but seriously I'm going to miss this place so much. I love it. But I don't think I can survive here coz walking down the street of london, in a minute, you'll find your nose is black. The air is so dirty that you wish you could wash your face fifth five times a day.

Tower bridge.We were lucky to witness the lifting of the bridge. Two times.*smile 
Tower bridge is exciting. But london bridge is more famous. Thanks to the 'London bridge is falling down' song.  What if we create another catchy song for tower bridge?  Coz I personally think, london bridge is not interesting. It's just a road. with lots of cars. with nothing interesting to be captured.   

Yes. I'm quite a fan of harry potter hence the picture on the very left, platform 9 3/4. 
Oh the telephone booth. It's nice to see from the outside. The inside?? God knows how smelly it was. Somebody didn't know where to pee i guess. *puke
Lots of flags huh? Coz the queen's bday was a few days after we arrived in london. 80 something years. not bad. *terus nyanyi God save the queen.ehe
Victoria- the last station before going back to plymouth. ='(

see..the same shirt. the same scarf. the same cardi. now you know how important to recycle your shirts especially when all the clothes you brought were absolutely colour-block. =.='
thanks to the cloudy-weather. the sweat was nowhere to be found. hence, the recycling process became easier. oh yeah, don't forget to spray some EDT too.^_*

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

.hikmah kembara.

"ujian yang diberi akan membuahkan kemanisan iman berpanjangan sekiranya diiringi doa, tawakal dan sabar."-nia-

i thank Allah for this 6-day journey

thank you for sending me to the program where i could meet those lovely people who could answer my queries without me asking any question

thank you for sending me the sisters and brothers.thank you for giving me time to meet her at the very last minute.2 minutes are enough to give me hope.

hope everything goes well


i'm patiently waiting to make things clear


yet i'm partially ready to face the consequences

waiting for the result makes me nervous, and anxious and afraid and painful but excited at the same time.

i'm no good

but i will try to be one of the best

coz Allah judge the effort you give.not the product.

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

.the final escapade.

taking myself outa plymouth tomorrow
may Allah bless the journey


we meet again i.Allah.
p/s: may the days will always be cloudy in london.amin.

Saturday, May 26, 2012

.bonding session.

the colours that you pick to wear will define your mood for that day

and for today, i pick something bright.

 
the quran recitation
the food
the games
the happy faces
the weather
everything could put a smile on my face, and everybody's face.
thank you for today sisters and brothers.

"Therefore, turn in prayer to your Lord and sacrifice (to Him only)" Al-Kauthar 108:2

Friday, May 25, 2012

.keep on dreaming.

a perfect manicure to cure the scars

a second trip to al-hambra

an empty oxford streets full of discounts

a big bouquet of real roses

perfect gifts for everyone whom i love and care about

a nice comfy shoes

a set of mature-black attire

a so-very-important dress

an excited 'visit' to harrords 

dreams that come true



p/s this should be printed out for the children to see how pathethic their mother was.

Thursday, May 24, 2012

.before leaving for good. (3)

Dear Adrian,
sorry for secretly not attending your class (a few times like 2 or 3 times i guess)
not because i hate your class
but because your words are too high and tooo bombastic that made me feel so stupid as i had to listen carefully to understand your message.
thank you for attending our humble tea party
though i didn't talk with you during the party, i did talk about you with my fellow friends. you are the baik hatiest lecturer we've ever met.

Dear doddie
you are as funny as ever
i'm so gonna miss you
very father-like
and very friendly
thank you for giving me C for first-sem drama
coz you made me work harder for the next two sems

Dear john
i don't know you much
but i know you cycle everyday to uni
though you can afford bmw
i respect you for being humble
and i respect you for being environmental friendly
you and miss jenny can go along i guess.

ady,doddie,jojon

thank you for coming to our farewell party, the malaysian style.
the good things about throwing a party in the uk are; you cook then you eat
you don't need catering
and you don't need a 5-star hotel
save budget kan? =)

yours truly,
the colour-block lady























p/s i know the lecturers will not read my blog (thousand times not)

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

.hanya perubahan yang tak berubah.

hari ni rabu

esok khamis

lusa jumaat

jumaat hantar assignment

tengah-tengah buat assignment, pandai seja sebak-sebak sendiri

lepas buat assignment, takda buat assignment lain da

jadi kena nikmati setiap detik bersama assignment (eh mengada ngada betul)

lepas hantar assignment ni

maksudnya xlama lagi tinggalkan uk

dan balik malaysia

eh, sy suka balik malaysia

sy suka malaysia

tapi kali ni lain

malaysia bukan macam malaysia yang dulu

sabah pun macam tu.

kk

tawau

semua bukan macam dulu.

mungkin nanti semuanya akan jadi asing 

semoga ke-asingan itu dapat diasingkan dari hati

berharap semoga semuanya baik-baik saja nanti.


Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Dear teachers,

I found an interesting fact that I thought worth sharing.

As a teacher (especially English teacher), there are times when you really want to do some speaking activities/ games that involve higher level noise for your students.  But the problem is, other teachers from the next door sometimes (or most of the time) being rather bossy.  They don't want your class to disturb theirs.  So, it's kinda put you off to do any interesting activites that you end up do something boring and torturous like 'open your text book page 15. Read the text and answer all the questions in page 16.  Keep quiet. Hands on the table and shut your mouth'.  If you do this like everyday, then, you'll end up be the most miserable teachers in the entire history of teaching.  No, no. You are not the one to be blamed.  Let's put the blame on the teachers next door, shall we?

So, what this expert suggests is 'do speaking activity when it's raining'.  Funny! An expert can sometimes be soo creatively creative. I seriously laughed when I read it.  But somehow it's true though.  You can ask the students to speak as loud as they can.  You can play huhahuha games too. The noise from your class won't be that obvious to the mr and mrs bossy teachers next door. But, but, you have to rajinly check the weather forecast everyday before class. If it's only light rain, don't play with fire ya (read:jangan bermain dengan api). Coz this principle is only valid for heavy rain.


p/s i think roisin and nick shoud include 'students with high pitch voice' in the assignment. Imagine if there are 40 students in a class all with a falsetto voice?! ya ampun. ampas satu satu kalo bising.
               

Monday, May 21, 2012

.before leaving for good. (2)

last week we finaaaaally submitted our second last assignment.
the feeling was absolutely good
glad that i have the dilligent trio
imms imms the grammarian goddess 
yaya the creative assessment designer
mamal the full-of-idea woman (*names arranged according to pic)
and of course me, the word-cutter??erk
it was good to know that we finally made it till the end
after almost two weeks of sleepless nights
and the never ending discussion
now, practically, we could breathe again
eh but not just yet
this week, we have to pulun habishabis for the last assignment
designing three lesson plans in challenging circumstances are very challenging though.
but, whathever the challenges are, we have to challenge ourselves to complete the challenging assignment. then baru bole huhahuha.kan?

of shining smiles and swollen eyes

of our second-last-assignment and the mat salleh's lighter




*i found that the more i open my window, the more binatang come into my room.=.=

Sunday, May 20, 2012

.before leaving for good.

farewell farty.
juniors, u are the awesomely greatest party planners!

imms imms thank u.

.our one big family. *courtesy hafiz*

dont tell me how many days left.
coz i hate counting.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

.the G-word.

saying goodbye to the love ones is not my cup of tea






can we not say the G-word?
coz it's the most not-awesome word in the entire kingdom of vocabulary.






p/s dont want to see ppl crying.coz it's contagious.

Monday, May 14, 2012

no ledge or knowledge?

Sometimes I found language is weird. Like why do we have a word with different meaning but almost-similar pronunciation? Not to be bias, both Malay lang and English are the same. Remember the famous 'dadah' and 'dada' and also 'darah' and 'dara'? People can easily misinteprate your context if you pronounce it wrongly. Like the semenanjungs, we can distinguish between 'darah' and 'dare' based on the 'e' sound.   Pity the sabahan (especially those who still fail to speak with the semenanjung accent.ehem.like.ehem.me). Coz we tend to say the 'a' sound and make the confusion even greater.

English is also the same.  This morning my lecturer demonstrated how the low ability students might speak in english; 'I go beach my family yesterday' annnd some of us laughed. Coz it sounds like 'bitch'.  Other decent words that sometimes create confusion with the disturbing words are like 'testees'(teachers' jargon) and 'testis' as well as 'last' and 'lust'. Next time, if you were given responsibility to create new words, please don't associate your words with something you yourselves might feel unease to blurt it out.  

Sunday, May 13, 2012

.running here and there.crawling upside down.

And so...we are in the fifth month of 2012.time flies.
May means final month of studying in the uk
and May means lots of things to do
lots of things to be completed
and here are the snippets of the things that i did, i'm doing, and i'll do this whole month before flying back msia for good

malaysian festival in uni

the kids tried the bollywood dance

yes.we are the sales girls.

'where is the love' by wardina and co.

a beauty she is
with myriam cerrah.a revert.a student in oxford.a mother and of course a wife.
with syeikh marwazi.never fail to make us laugh.
the so-not perfect picture of ours.(the story will be continued later.)
the long lost friends. those who are pktr-ians who accidentally read my blog, you dont have to worry of najah and hosni. they are doing fine here in the uk. najah sanngat tinggi.
imran anak wardina.oh btw the guy is not the father.he's still single n available.ok i made that up.i have no idea who he is actually.haha



Farewell party

will be held next week.theme: red carpet. emm pakai dress carpet kali ngam kan.



Read and write for the last two assignments.fuh!
15th and 25th. (the butterflies stuck in the stomach)

30th may-4th june: a program.yet to be confirmed.

Thursday, April 26, 2012

.caring is sharing 5: love can bite. (no.not talking about love bite).


A best friend lent me this book and asked me to read it no matter how long it will take me to finish.  I was reluctant to read it at first. Because I thought..no, I don't need this kind of thing. 'Tentang cinta'??It's too cliche.  So I kept the book nicely among stacks of other books on the bedside table...for months. Can you imagine?? For months!   Until one day, something terrible happened.  I finally have the guts to open and read the book. And yeah, I learn and re-learn some things. Like, ya know, medicine is bitter, but the bitterness of it can make you feel better.  The same goes to problem.  Problems make you feel frustrated, dissapointed,upset and all, but without the problems, how'd you know you are stronger? Problems give you the essence of strength and courage. We learn from mistakes, don't we? "Hidup tidak selalu indah, kerana di situlah keindahan hidup"

When I messed up, I do question myself, why?why now?why did this happen?why me? Yet I realise,why did I ask why when the 'how' is more important than the 'why'? When things happen, we should be proud coz He chooses us instead of somebody else.  "Dia memutuskan untuk menyambungkan" 


"Love Him, before you love him"




i found pic taken from the back shows how peaceful you are. but at another angle, it shows how problematic and miserable you are.

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

.happiness in a circle.

Remember the first time we've been introduced to the 'happy circle'? We refused to join.  The sisters knocked gently but we slammed the door and muttered bad words. We pretended we had something else to do. Every friday night, we said we need to do assignments, homework, exercises blablabla. We tried soo hard to give silly excuses. Funny.  Coz now, after three years, we can't wait for friday night.  Because we can't wait to see each other.  We do meet in class, but the feeling is different when we are together in the small room and make a circle and discuss about things.  We know it's not just a circle, it's our 'happy circle'.


after subuh


happy circle is not restricted in a room.it can also be in  the sports hall,people.
.sisters.


 .let's remind each other.from now until forever.