Sunday, November 27, 2011

.making my way out.

life has been so tough lately
i don't blame the assignments and exams
i blame my bad dreams instead

but im grateful that the bad dreams had made their way out from my sleep
and funny dreams replace 'em all
i'm the one who can easily be affected by dreams
bad habit. i know.
but sometimes dreams make me be what I cannot be in real life
and meet somebody whom i can't possibly meet
sometimes i force myself to sleep again with hope that the dream continues.
bad habit.again.

last night,
i slept soundly
without dreams to cuddle
thanks to Mount Edgcumbe for making me tired
but the tiredness is worth it because the journey was awesome!
thanks iylia for planning this unintended  'girls day out'-journey.
from ferry to maze, to beach, to the incomplete castle, to the mountain, to the ducklings and seagull....
everything is perfectly framed in my memory.

ice-cream made in cornwall.

courtesy of zaf

i'm in loooveee with this seriousllly in love.

ferry. 2.40 pounds return from city to mount edgcumbe.10 minutes journey. (yes.i'm promoting.)

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

.assignment is not supposed to start with an A and double S.

(coz ppl start to take the A and double S and leave the 'ignment'. and started to create a new phrase 'pain in the ASSignment' And then it will give you negative thoughts about the assignments(or is it just me?)

from james joyce to language policy
from language policy to authentic materials
and not to forget managing behaviour.
everything is jumble up now.
ouh, shouldn't put the two 'y' should be aaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

ok it's alright. exhale and inhale. and you're going to be jussst fine.
life is short btw.
so let's make it simple.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

.becoming a teacher (2).

Sitting among the two girls (let's call them C and D) and two boys (emm A and B) in Year 7 (12-13 y.o) today. Teacher was explaining about the task they should do in class; designing a cake for 5 year-old kids. Some said 'yay!' some said 'nay!' And me? I'm in the 'yay!' group. coz I think this food-class is waaay better than the electronic class. The class is not boring and I have fun and chatty kids to be around with.

B: Miss where are you from?
Me: Why don't you guess?
A: You are from China! *i laughed*
B: No.She's from Uganda.  *laughed again*
D: Slovakia? *what??haha*
Me: I'm from Malaysia.
B: Asia??
Me: Yeah. Asia..but specifically Malaysia. You know Malaysia?
B: Hey!she's from Asia!(shouting.telling the whole class. The teacher looked at me; smiling. which i saw as 'you've created chaos in this class!')

C: Miss why did you wear that head scarf?  Is it because you are cold?
Me: No.This is for religious purpose.I'm muslim.
B: So do you have hair?
Me: Of course I do. *laughed*
A: So you not wear bikini then.
B: Hey of course not! She won't expose her body to everyone. *I laughed* 
C: So how are you gonna swim? Are you wearing like this too?
Me: No. Do you think they will allow me to swim like this?*laughed* We have our own swimsuit. It's not that tight. It's a bit loose.and it's not bikini.

A  : Miss, are you married?
Me: *Laugh* Not yet.
C  : My mother is not married too.
Me : Is she?
C: Yeah. And i don't know who's my father. (Gosh! kesian.)
A  : I hate my father!
Me: Why?You can't simply hate your father.
A: Because he's never home. Mom said that I have loooots of Dads.
Me: *speechless for a second* So you live with you mother then?
A: Yup. And my sister. Miss..have you watched home alone? (yeah.they love to change topic abruptly)
Me: Yup. it's about that cute little boy is it?
A: No! he's not cute. emm sister loves to be at home, alone.
Me: Ouh, sometimes I like to be alone in my house too. (A looks at me with his surprised expression. I was like...did I say it wrongly??)
A: Everytime she's alone, she will have sex with her boyfriend. ( wonder he gave me that expression =.=)
Me: So how did you know? You've seen them??
A gives me a mischievous smile. God! *Faint*

Friday, November 18, 2011

.seeking attention.

so the kenduri is tomorrow
bad news, i'm not around.
so to make sure that they won't forget about me not being around,
i called her constantly
and asked her lots of questions
though i know she has lots of things to settle.
'are you busy?'
'is everyone home?'
'what are you cooking?'
'who's coming?'
'did you invite this and that?'
ouh, i'm such an annoying creature.

called her again
and it's soothing when she said no worries.although u are not here, we still 'count you in'

Thursday, November 17, 2011

.the wardrobe story.

Opening the wardrobe...
it's 9 in the morning,
Heading to the class with your casual look...emmm perhaps baju kurung.

"Ouh I've got an interview!" you said.
opening the wardrobe once again.
You then dress smartly with coat and black heels and off you go.

4 pm
it's time to hit the gym
you throw away the heels and coat
open the wardrobe 
and grab the adidas tee

the clock struck 8
It's prom night!
you are standing in front of the wardrobe
wondering what to wear
You then choose the flattering gowns
and apply some make-up

It's 12
you put on the pyjamas which you grab from the wardrobe
without counting sheeps, you sleep soundly.

Opening a wardrobe is like opening  a wide range of personalities
the serious coat, the playful dress, the energetic t-shirt, the romantic gown etc
if you say that you only have one personality and it's not gonna change for the rest of your life...------ouh kamon! don't bluff.
you're not goin to wear pyjamas for all occasions, are you?

Tuesday, November 15, 2011


mouse yang di atas otw mengalami kehancuran selepas terjatuh atas kepala beberapa jam yang lalu.

p/s: malasnyaaaa mau cariii baruuuuu.sob.

Sunday, November 13, 2011

"LOVE": what's the first colour that cross your mind? (beg for an answer)

Red is not the only colour for roses.
It can be white, lavender, yellow, burgundy, peach, and sometimes blue...
but the 7 year-old kids choose to paint it with red

The sky is not always blue
Sometimes, it can be grey, orange + gold and black too.
but the 7 year-old kids prefer to say 'the sky is blue'

Leaves can't only be green
When it's autumn, the leaves turn yellow
or may be brown.
in fact, red maple tree has burgundy leaves.
but the 7 year-old kids pick greeny for the leaves.not burgundy.not brown.not yellow.

Why are these things happened?
Because we have moulded the kids that way.
Don't you think so?

what's your answer to my question "Love: what's the first colour that cross your mind?"

If your answer is 'red', then you are the '7 year-old kids'.

p/s: Suddenly I realise that saying "I hate changes" won't change anything.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

.Having trouble sleeping?? Try literature.

If you are students, I'm pretty sure that you have experienced what I always experience in class: the sleeeeeepinesss.

And I don't always face this kind of situation except in Literature class. Why? Because the lecture is like a lullaby. =.=

Today I faced the eyes-don't-want-to-open situation once again. So what I did was:
 1. Roll my eyes as big as I could

2. Whatever he says, I just write 'em down. It works! I have something to focus on rather than thinking of my sleepiness. It's just sentences were hanging:
"He demonstrates"
"get out what lies beneath the"
"poem allows human nature to speak outside the nature of"
  When I read my notes back, I was like, who's homosexual?? He demonstrates what?? So basically I'm in despair.=.=

3. Nod! Nod as often as I can coz physical movement can make me less sleepy.  Besides, nodding gives a positive connotation.  The lecturer might think that I completely understand what he says.  Whereas, the truth is I'm just the sleepyhead who are extremely sleepy until my head goes back and forth.

4. Close my eyes for 10 seconds while frowning.  Lecturer might think that I'm thinking. Actually I'm 'meditating.'
5. I'm trying so hard not to take a glimpse of my watch/ the clock. Coz I have this habit..when I know what time it is, I tend to count how many hours to go before the 'bell rings'. And I tell you, it's completely annoying!

So basically these are the things that help me to survive in Adrian's class (kunun). If you have another splendid ideas on how to fight the sleepiness in class, you are welcomed to share 'em with me.

----"ada presentation hari ni."
----"gud luck! buat ja mcm *anda selalu becakap dlm keta." Ouch!haha

*subject to change

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

.becoming a teacher (1).

Was writing some notes when a cute-handsome little year 8 student smiled at me. I smiled back and continued writing.  But I could feel that he's watching me. I stopped writing. And slowly, I took a seat beside him.

Me: You look bored.
S: Yeah. I don't like textile (the subject). I don't like sewing.
Me: I see. Now tell me what you'd like to do?
S: I dunno.
Me: Do you like Maths?
S: Em..kinda. I'm just bored! Teacher scolds me.Always!
Me: Wanna talk?
S: Let's talk then. (put his pencil down and smile at me) Why do you come here?
Me: I have to do some observation.Taking notes and stuff.
S: Do you like it?
Me: Erk??
S: Did you do this because you have to or because you like it? (I was like God! this kid is really something.haha)
Me: Actually..I have to.I must do it.This is for my know..dissertation and all.
S: I saw you taking notes. Did you enjoy it? (Gotcha!I said to myself)
Me: Enjoy it??haha.let me tell you my secret. I don't like doing this.It's booring!
S: (he laughed) Then, why you do this anyway? Why don't you just go back?
Me: You also bored. Why don't you just go back too?
S: Coz I have no choice.
Me: Same. Because I have to do this. Even though I'm feeling completely bored, I still have to do it. I have to go through it until I the work is done. And that's what you have to do now. Because we have the same problem.
S: (smile)

The teacher assistant (TA) suddenly came towards us. I get up and went to my seat; continued taking notes.  When the TA had gone, I took a quick glance at him. He was doing his work. I smiled. Did I just give him motivation? Auwww.. I feel touched.


Where is he going now?

Ok.He's under the table. Crawling. and flirting with that cute girl. Pffft!

I'm not a good motivator huh?!=.=

Saturday, November 5, 2011

.ketukketuk aidiladha.'s malam raya tonight.
I'm glad that we have you tube to keep on repeating the takbir
as well as lagu raya. *smile*

If I were in tawau right now, I probably help mum to do the buras.
Here, in house 31, my housemates show their talent in doing these delicious delicacies:

cream puff fatin-in-the-making (we use to call it kuih taik yg sedaap. =p)

trifle zaf. looks tempting kan?

go dib! show the world u can do it!
tonight we had a small celebration; takbir, makanmakan and all.
and tomorrow, we'll go for raya prayer before have a small makanmakan again. (makan terus.typical malaysian huh?)
then we'll have to go back home and do the homework coz we've got class on Monday.
But at least this year is better than last year's raya.
coz after performing the prayer, some of us straight away went to lecture.

selamat hari raya aidiladha dari saya dan suami penghuni rumah 31.
mari berkorban! =)

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

.the Malaysians abroad. (Manchester)

From Warrington to Liverpool,
Shall we fly to Manchester now?

Manchester is heaven!
I'm bias. I admit that. Ha.ha.
I'm soo freaking excited because Manchester is one of the many cities that I wanted to visit.
The whether was good when we started our journey to Old Trafford (OT).
Eyp, wait! We actually went shopping before we took a tram to OT.
Shopping in Manchester was heavenly heavennn!
Shopping in H&M was like shopping in charity shop.(better than that I think.hehe)

from h&m to clarks to miss selfridge...then we suddenly pancit in tk max.They said, 'hey, cannot sit on the floor la.' Yet we had no choice coz kaki suda penat bah. No bench summore. so what to do lah. =)
 And you know what happened behind this picture?

It's actually a Ralph Lauren coat.
Aufa found it first.
And I was like 'It's Ralph Lauren!! You soo gonna buy this!'
And when we saw the price (pic above) we said 'You sooo gonna put this back!'

Ok.Enough about shopping.

After had a buffet in halal chinese restaurant,
we took a tram to OT.
The excitedness was in the air.
Few minutes after that, we reached OT.
Just by reading the sign 'Welcome to Old Trafford' made me feel 'wowwww!!'

Now, lets talk about the stadium.
three words: I LOVEEEEEE ITTTT!
You know the feeling of entering branded-stuff-with-affordable-price shop?? That's exactly how I felt at that moment. Excited!
The tour guide was awesome!!

that's him!!
We also entered the dressing room
so basically we had the chance to put on the players' jersey.
we just touched it. and crumpled it.and take pictures with it.

and some acted like the this guy:

ferguson's identical twin.=p
since we were soo excited, we took pictures almost anywhere.twice! =.=

why only two of us? because we used the same camera.
and thrice. =.="
same spot but with different expression.

take 1:
"we are friends"
take 2:
"I'm his daughter.and he's my father"

Take 3:
"I'm his mistress. and we are happy together."
*ampun dib.haha*
And something good happened while we were buying souvenirs.
we found them!!!

me: 'are you travelling alone?'
datuk farid: nope. i'm with a few others. faizal tahir is also here.
the excited friends: *screammmmm*

see.imma was soo excited.haha
After hu-ha-ing, we had to go back.
It was very windy.
extremely windy actually.
The tudung was out of place.
and hey friends, remember the 'flying-certificate'??
It was hillarious.
Imma, aufa, wani, fatin and hyder ran for it.
and the awesome part was, while they were running hither and thither, hafiz and I-can't-remember-who were enjoying their kodak moments! It was funny! (At least for me and for those who witness the 'flying-certificate event')

The Manchester was awesome!
One of the reasons why I like it soo much is because of you. =)