I was waiting for that moment to come. Everything's ready. From goggle to silicon cap to float. Pound by pound transferred into the shopping mall. This is the hardest part of all. You know, when you go shopping, there are two voices in your head; 'Buy it' or 'Don't buy it!' (Especially if those things are not in your wish list.at all!)
Then when you are about to pay, this 'Don't-buy-it' thought suddenly hit you: 'You wanna buy these freaking swimming stuffs??! You gotta be kidding me! You can buy 3 dresses instead.' But then, it's too late to say 'Yes.I should buy dresses!' coz the cashier already said 'This is your receipt.Thank you and please come again.'
Ok.Back to my first sentence,I was waiting for that moment to come. And yeah, I finally hit the pool. Drinking the tasteless water is normal. Shouting instead of talking is super normal (the silicon cap makes you deaf). It supposed to be an exciting moment. But I can't feel the excitement. It's just not there. May be because it's too crowded. Or may be because the lifeguard is always a guy. Or may be because....ok.I shouldn't lie.It's because I don't know how to swim until the deep end. Everytime I feel like I'm a good swimmer, I found myself kicking the floor.not the water.Ouh! pathetic!