in a certain situation,
you would rather hurt yourself
rather than hurting somebody.
the pain you felt is painless when you see the other party is smiling.
you never fail to whisper 'cheer up! things'll get better'
but, until when?
in the dark, you silently pray that you can escape from the bitterness of lying to yourself.
Coz indirectly, you are lying to another person
and things will get worst when the truth behold.
yeah, you are trying very hard not to be selfish.
perhaps, that's why you put your happiness on sale.