Wednesday, September 29, 2010


I don't like to feel insecure and I don't like to be the reason for somebody to feel insecure. Hey, have I done that? emm..may be. If I did, I'll try to knock it off someday. No worries okke..cheers!

Talking about insecurity, I accidentally googled it and guess what...there's more about women  insecurity rather then men. Duh! obviously bah kan. Coz women are more emotional, they are more imaginative (org mlayu ckp 'suka pikir bukan2'), they need more security (literally), they need more attention...and many MORE.

Owh..It's not that I want to talk about every woman in this world. Duh! I'm not a researcher FGS. and I don't want to talk about *YOUR insecurity because this is my blog so why I'm bother to tell about YOURS. Go write it in your blog. (aik..emotional pulak tiba2 kan.sory2.=p). These are a few of my insecurities:

As a student:
-feel insecure when lecturers don't even bother to ask me questions when they actually ask everybody in the class. I was like...why don't they ask me? am i that stupid?

As a daughter:
-insecure about my performance as a daughter. Afraid that what i've said and done are actually not good in my mum's eyes and ears.

As a friend:
-I'm afraid if my jokes will hurt them.
-I feel insecure especially when they leave me alone in a crowd.

As a special someone:
-before this i feel insecure when he has a chat with another woman.but i realised that his tone, gesture and eye-contact are different when he talks to me. so, the insecurity fades away.
- before this i feel insecure when a woman write/talk something which i believe is about him (see..i'm quite IMAGINATIVE aite?). but..after sometime, i realise, why i have to bother about it? if Allah says he's the one...then he is. chill laa.
-emmm..insecurity??i will say no. coz i believe that he can be trusted. it's just that he sometimes makes me worry by not texting me. (although sometimes i feel insecure about...oh just don't talk about this here..malu tauk).

may be you girls have some things in common with me. yeah! at the end, we are still women with lots of insecurity. but try to overcome it by being positive, ladies. don't let ur insecurity budging you along the journey. be positive!

*refer to nobody.


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