Wednesday, April 14, 2010

never have i thought....

never have i thought i could be this 'big'
physically
i could wear 'S' shirts before without problems
but now..
i have to consider my belly
my waist..
gosh!it's embarassing 
but it's true indeed!

never have i thought i could be this 'big'
when i realise i love to cook
n obviously that's a good step to become a good wife in the future
am i right?
but still..i can't believe how much i love cooking rite now
before this...
i hardly go to the kitchen n help mamak to cook
now..i dont have to use turbo power to force myself cooking.

never have i thought i could be this 'big'
when i know how to make a conversation with the eldest
before this
i thought i dont have to speak
afraid of worthless points

never have i thought i could be this 'big'
when i realise i have the right to speak
i don't have to live in shadows
and should speak up for my own rights
but sometimes i think i over do it..
n make people hurt for what i have said

never have i thought i could be this 'big'
when my mum shares a mature-topic 
we laugh a real-adult-laugh
no more fairy tales

never have i thought i could be this 'big'
when i realise i have owned a love
no more puppy love
but i hope a real love
which can lead me to the altar
coz i love him
and this love hopefully can bring me to Heaven.(InsyaAllah.amin.)

never have i thought i could be this 'big'
coz i am now 21
no more '-teen' but '-ty'

so should i do my assignments right now?
coz i really am a BIG girl now
but i think a BIG girl doesn't have to pack her stuff and go to the lecture hall
and listen to the lecturer's talk
and do zillions of homework
and assignments..
so i guess i'm not that big though. 
*sigh*


yg perasan sda besar,
ana_rama

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